Saturday, April 5, 2008
tried applyin leave and off from mon-wed next wk, cos i know that there might be a chance i will be confined for the next 2wk. though till now its still nt confirmed. but still.. if my off is approved.. which means its my last day in the camp already. as i was washin the ration bag, i was thinkin.. i wld miss my job as a storeman.. dunno why its like tis, when i am a storeman, i dun wan to be a storeman, when i cant be a storeman, i miss being a storeman.. seems weird? but most pple are like me bah.. haha
as i asked my oc abt takin leave, then he started sayin he wld recommend me be cq becos i veri up(steady),get jobs done. but then.. of cos lar.. nv do get punish extra duties wad.. and anyway gotta give my best also, dun wan sabo other pple. now kinda worried tat they will recommend me be cq n come back to b cq! which is wad i dun realli wan.. realli worry how i can handle all tis admin work man..
haf been listenin to tis song by mayday, seems like i can relate wif the song content.. haha! reminds me of a sms i sent my gd friend long long time ago, i asked, wads my strength, perhaps most pple's strength wld be some talent, skills etc.. but mine.. wad he said was.. i dun give up. now its gd to refresh myself again of all tis memories of mine and the grace of God in me all tis yrs.. God's strength i believe one of it is certainly, he nv gives up on me.
咸鱼我是一只咸鱼不想承认也不能否认
不要同情我笨又夸我天真还梦想著翻身
咸鱼就算翻身还是只咸鱼输得也诚恳
至少到最后我还有咸鱼不腐烂的自尊
我没有任何天分
我却有梦的天真
我是傻不是蠢我将会证明用我的一生
我如果有梦有没有错错过才会更加明白
明白坚持是什么我如果有梦梦要够疯
够疯才能变成英雄总会有一篇我的传说
我不好也不坏不特别出众
我只是敢不同
我的人生就是一错再错错完了再从头
也许放弃掉一些活得更轻松
我却不再是我
我不愿一生晒太阳吹风
咸鱼也要有梦有一天有我的天空作我的英雄在我的天空我知道你懂知道你会懂
Thursday, April 3, 2008
at 8.30pm, jus as i was resting in the office, my oc jus came out from his office and said, i do not need to go taiwan anymore, but to go back tekong for recourse, man.. i was stunned, wonder to be happy or sad. smth i haf always been waiting to happen, but tis wld mean i wld miss my taiwan trip! and haf to report to tekong on the 10th April, so fast! and my next thot was.. i am gotta leave tis camp, n wun be stayin wif tis grp of army guys i haf been tgt wif tis 5mths! cant describe how i felt then.. even though tis is described as a hell camp, but the thot of me leavin, super super sad.. mayb i hate changes.. becos leaving means i cant be hangin out wif tis pple in bunk, coy line as before.. tis seems so dramatic, wad seems to be running in my mind was the flashback of wad i went thru tgt wif my friend in tis few mths.. atec, outfield training, activation at 6am,watchin huang jing lu tgt, days we play risk thru out the nitz till mornin...
also jus 2wks ago i had intention to go see a doc to check my ear, had my live firing a mth ago, hurt my ear.. its been like a mth plus my ear haf been hearing the eeee sound.. now much better.. but it still seem my hearing is not as gd as before anymore.. goin to a polyclinic tmr to haf it checked up.. also can feel some ache frm my wound 2wks ago.. man.. all tis happen jus when i need to return to bmt?? i dun know wads the outcome after seein the doc.. no intention to skip bmt, but realli leave it up to God whether my ear n body will be alrite b4 then.. still dun understand why all tis happen jus when i need to go back bmt.. but of cos.. GOd has a reason for everything tat is goin on in my life..
jus came back frm a farewell dinner for christine, goin overseas attachment for 1/2yr, workin in disneyland,wow.. blessed girl! had dinner at swensens, initally shd haf more pple, but all were busy, turned up was me,joanne,amelia,dawn,justin, nevertheless, we still enjoyed time spent at the dinner table. wishin her all the best to enjoy this attachment!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
missed svc again, tis time was becos of my friend reporting sick, so i had to cover his duty, heard tat its the young professional svc, missed it! and missed the LAST cg wif peter shaun hongmum! though i haf lots of off, but it seems like i dun get the off on the impt dates! haf been missin out on lots of things man, now tat they are movin on to uni grp le, believe will miss the times spent, though its for a short 5mths.
anw, had my ippt in the morning and amazing tat i not onli got a pass, but a silver! couldnt imagine it be possible! thought mayb after i pass out bmt, mayb tats possible, but now? tats miracle, and thx God for it man! mayb God knows i need tat $100 reward for getting silver! haha! had a great problem wif standing broad jump, all this yrs, same old problem, jumped like 10+ times, dunno why i always jump wif one leg onli, and amazin thing tat i can jump to 218cm wif one leg! and according to my sgt, he was amazed, he tried himself and he couldnt understand how i could jump wif one leg, reach 218cm and so smoothly!! but then its considered a foul jump, not counted, but somehow still got 225cm finally, thx God. last part was 2.4km, man.. my motivation was $100! and dun haf to book in nitz before everyday for morning remedial training! as i run, as usual, as the sayin goes.. desperate man prays! as i run, realli depended on God, help me!! help me!! finished wif 11min 20sec! phew.. but then of cos, believe if yinglin sees tis post, sure he will hur.. cos ippt is nothin to him at all, diver mah..
gotta book in again veri soon, time past super fast man.. but inside camp, time goes sooo slowww..
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
its so miraculous that for tis 3wks, I haf at least 10 midnight duties, and after duty didn’t haf much rest, but I I didn’t fall sick at all, which usually normally after one overnight, next day I will be sneezing and the next thing is fever. consider tis a miracle?
anyways.. ever since ops, i haf gained 2kg, wow, tis is gd news for me, everytime i go gym, theres always a mirror tat let me see how thin i am! no wonder my mum always say haf i been eating or not. even me myself am stunned by how thin i am! haf been goin gym, few reasons, keep fit, in shape, pass my ippt!! will be having my block leave from 9th -16th April, cos 17th april i will be flying to taiwan, but if i dun pass my ippt, this block leave i will haf to book in at 2359hrs everyday to run at 6am then book out, tis really turn off many pple, so i haf to pass ippt before then! also training up jus in case n most probably if i were to haf sheeps, they are gotta be pple tat are sgt, 2lt, very fit, so i gotta be fit physically n spiritually ready! though physical fit does not determine whether i can be a gd shepherd not, but perhaps its a way to comfort myself, tat my vocation is heaven n earth difference frm em but at least i m fit. lol.. sounds funny, but tats my thinkin. gotta make effort to grow!
Monday, March 10, 2008
manhunt in progress.. shall blog more when its all over...
Sunday, February 17, 2008
going for atec tmr, even though i m not the frontline soldier but tis time round actually going outfield wif rifle.. though many say its easy to use but wonder how it will feel to really shoot!lol. though its said to b the last outfield for my unit, but to me i still haf a yr more of outfields to go to. and jus got to know i was chosen to go taiwan for training! though i could be stayin back in my bunk relax but now i haf to go outfield again! wad more its frm 18th april -05 may, when my sir told me, my 1st thot was i wld haf to spend my bday in a foreign land! and dunno y i haf to go too.. out of 130 pple, 80 are chosen, and i jus got chosen somehow! if realli haf to go.. perhaps jus take it as a experience le, amazing a recruit, haven pass any basic military training but got tis chance to go overseas training, think God realli brought me to a path that not many has walked before, thought april i might go back recourse but turn up to be taiwan! if things realli turn up tis way, then wonder who will i see when i recourse. many to type but gotta wake up early for soccer.. better sleep early.. somemore gotta book in super early.. hope i wun get sick, kinda heaty now.. then gotta eat 4days of biscuit while outfield! pray everythin be well and we can pass the test!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
last sat was our ns vision nitz, wow, 2nd time going for tis, 1st time was nitz cycling, then 2nd was tis, find everything real cool n professional, got mm clips, drama, praise worship wif music team, n most imptly the powerful teaching by jie hui. talkin abt vision for God, bringing upon the heart of "i jus cant take it!", the popeye moment, to save olive oil frm the man, get powered up, becos, he jus cant take it, he has to do smth abt it! vision is smth tat realli motivate and push pple towards achieve the goal, was a significant day tat i renew my vision, to c n believe wad i wannna do in days to come, currently gaining confidence in wad God can do thru me, wanna lay everythin behind me, setbacks, self-motivated! my next move.. in my heart, seriously.. i realise i haf been building pple during my youth days to serve in the k.o.g, but i haf not had the joy of seeing the one i brought to church , growing and serving in the lord, believe tat is another kind of joy i can haf but i dun.. so now.. since i m starting frm scratch now, no sheep, no other burden, its gd i can focus on outreach n outreach alone, also its a gd time for me to be exposed more outside wif my friends, do new things etc! theres a saying, be in the world, not of the world, smtimes we are in church too much, we can even be so called not in the "world", n we wun know wads going on at all in the world, n jus enjoy in our own christian fellowship, n i pray i wun be like tis.. but i believe wad jesus did was true.. jesus went, saw, and had compassion. God help me to bring these pple in. some names are in my heart being prayed le.
anways, bruce shared tat as i go for my course and be same camp as yinglin, it was God blessed
tat i could haf a glimpse of wad is it like to haf hope pple in the camp! but i was even more blessed! i met 3 more! tertiary ns pple! haha! amazed to see tat... actually when i saw em, i jus said hi, but in my heart, i feel so owww.. feel so suan see some real familiar faces, amazing thing was all 5 of us got different job scope, and we all somehow met... slacking in canteen! haha! playin arcade or eating.. think true.. if in the camp can see hope pple, its a real joy.. so we mus work harder see more hope in same camp!
thurs is my practical test, next wk theory test, hopefully i will pass, but heard fail mus come back recourse, but can go home everyday for 2more wks also quite shiok! we even thot of failing tgt but of cos say say onli... gotta pass n do well! practical seems hard.. pray hard hard liao...
